Good Bye

Life is difficult.
but Parting ways is the most difficult thing to do.
Specially when thing end bitterly.There is a huge amount of hurt that we carry inside us. no one can heal us, unless we want to. Either we break down to shreds or we toughen up like stone. Our souls suffocate, we feel a physical ache to let go.
Bandaging things do help, but the ache remains with us all our lives.
Saying goodbye is some kind of a killing, a murder for our souls.
When we say goodbye to the one we love we make it difficult by hanging on. it hurts the other person as well as "us".
There are many ways to part from each other, to break the single entity that u both created as a whole.the easiest sound like mutual consent and the hardest sounds like vanishing out of the "us" life.
Its like the person is left bleeding , like a lost child on a railway terminal, all alone. but there are even worst ways to say goodbye like hurting each other and hating each other.please know this that nothing helps, u cant hate the person u once loved even for a single second.and yes how can i forget this,
while saying goodbye, we always wish for a last chance, for a last touch for a last hug, no matter how much damage we've done, but we still hope for a chance, we always do.
i read somewhere that time is the best healer, the best ointment. May be it is.
I do wish time could heal evrything the pain, the memories, the heartache.
And we also want to say thanks for the last time...
thanks for the memories, for the beautiful days, for the careless strolls, for the consummate togetherness and the "hopelessness".
and yes sorry....we want forgiveness for all the wrongs that we've done.
No one ever gives up hope though. Even a stone does have hope to be polished by the sand and become beautiful and to be found by someone. even a pebble wants to be found by a penguin to be the best offering of love.

:) someone once told me that Penguins stay together forever and when a male courts a female he finds the most beautiful pebble and keeps it on the female's feet so as to ask for her consent.
And they are together forever...
I wish we could all have been Penguins, at least there would be no goodbyes.

But if this is goodbye and you need to face it. then please do it in a better way. make sure you don't increase the damage by hanging on....know that u cannot undo the things u've done, the pain u've caused. even a computer program never gives a chance to ctrl+Z the things more than once. Just do whatever it takes to ease the pain, maintain a distance if u have to, let go and never loose hope.
May be when GOD is satisfied with your repentance, he would make things easier for you, and you'll live again not just breathe, but live. and yes don't hate yourself, it doesn't helps at all.

Say goodbye with a smile....
tears always makes it more painful.

As linking park very wisely and nicely frames-

"when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind
some reasons to be missed
dont resent me
and when u'r feeling empty...

keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest...
Leave out all the rest..."